Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Life has been like a roller coaster ride since the beginning of this sem. Somehow, I feel like just pressing the pause button and returning to where i was before. I have gain alot and lose alot. I have hurt many and was hurt myself. I have shed tears of regrets, tears of anger, tears of disappointment. How will things proceed from here i do not know. I just hope tt things will slow down and be less dramatic. I will be a better friend, a better partner, a better person. Give me time. Dun bleed by urself mj, shout for help. Yet it is so hard to ask for help. Drowning yet trying to be strong to swim to the shore by myself. Felt like i have been left in a deep blue sea, surrounded by nothing except endless waters. Emptiness consumes me. It may not be the right word but i cant think of any now. I yearn so much to be forgiven, to have fun and laugh out loud as before. But things will nv be the same. I will wait for time to pass and slowly time will heal everything. cheers mj
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